Even the restless heart sings....

Personally, I am aware that my heart has always been restless.  There has, for most of my life, been something outside my control, looming ahead somewhere.  The difference now is that it doesn't frighten me so much.

YES, THE RESTLESS HEART STILL SINGS!  There is hope in my heart about the sale of my house and what success there will be in providing for my next, much smaller and less expensive home.  I also have anticipation about WHERE that home will be, because I have presented to the forces of God's big Universe my desired location.  My home will be chosen during the 30 days between the signing of a contract on my house and the infamous 'C L O S I N G'.  You know...that event where 'THE check' with your name on it is presented.

YES, I'M STILL SINGING!  "Oh, what a beautiful morning..."  And surely what a beautiful thing to have my freedom!  This is new...no husband's job to follow.  Just "Well, where do you want to go, Linda?"  I've been told that I hum and sing all the time.  But even that unconscious song that just has to be expressed is a reflection of the fact that restless hearts are also happy hearts.

"Zip-A-Dee-Doo-Dah Zip-A-Dee-A, my oh my what a wonderful day....!"  Plenty of sunshine and sonshine coming my way...everything is satisfactual.  

Every now and then I wake up and do what humans usually do...and it starts like this.  "Lordy, Lordy (my Mom's favorite expression toward me), what in this world are you doing??!!  You don't have freinds in Branson.  You don't have a part time job.  You don't have a house there.  And what about the dogs who are accustomed to 2000 sq ft of house on 2 acres.  You mean you're taking them to an 800 sq ft condo without a fenced yard?  You've gone crazy this time (also said by my Mom most of my life).

But none of that is true!  I DO have friends in Branson - they just haven't met me yet.  I DO have a job there - I just haven't applied yet.  I DO have a house there, and every day as I look at what's for sale, I begin with, "Father, Spirit of all goodness, Forces of protection, please show me my new home.  How could I be let down?  Has He ever let me down?  NO, but he's taken me to the 'edge' a few times and I'm trusting this is an 'edgeless' wonderful experience!  

"Tomorrow, tomorrow, there's always tomorrow; it's only a day away...."  Yes, I will close one day in the near future and awaken the next morning as the sun comes up and go on my way.  It will all be waiting, as there is cause to hope that all the spiritual forces of good have gone ahead of me to prepare.  "Everything is going my way!"

I can "color with the colors of the wind."  I choose the vermillion of the sunrise, the azure blues of the fading sunset, the yellow of the noonday sun and the music of angel's wings as they swirl around me.  

And as Gary and I walk down the street looking for our first meal in Old Branson, I'll be silently, secretly singing...."Surely the presence of the Lord is in this place.  I can feel His mighty power and His grace.  I can hear the brush of angels wings.  I see glory on each face.  Surely the presence of the Lord is in this place."  I'm committed to take a little love to Branson and spread it around...thankful that this big world has offered me love all my life.  May my corner of Missouri be a little brighter because of that love.

My restless heart sings, and with the singing the restlessness of the heart becomes a bit more still... and focused... and satisfied.

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